image from Jamie Ridler, Jamie Ridler Studios
This afternoon, I leave to co-lead a weekend retreat.
I’ll be sitting in circle with trusted colleagues in a beautiful space in rural Kentucky with 15 incredible women. Women who have survived incredible abuse and lived to see the other side. Women who have been incarcerated themselves and are now recreating lives outside once again. Fifteen amazing women with powerful stories.
And its my job to create a loving space for them to connect, to listen, to dream, and to release. And I so desire for this to be a beautiful experience for them.
In Martha Beck’s The Joy Diet [that’s the book we’re discussing in The Next Chapter bookclub], Martha asks us to create ideas to step into our desires…and then to practice taking one frightening step each day towards it.
If this is the diet, I’ve been nibbling on these two ingredients for the last two weeks. From speaking at conferences to creating birthday bashs, I’ve been creating ideas as well as stepping further into them than ever before. I’ve been living into my vision, if you will, both personally and professionally.
And yet, this weekend offers an even more juicy nugget for creating and risking. For me, the risk will be about letting go of my agenda and my exercises and my most-perfect-you-have-to-hear-this quotes. It will be about taking the risk of showing up fully myself, without props, and trusting that that is enough. That I am enough and that I know enough already to create a beautiful container for these women. Because that’s my desire. To offer circles of women the space and place to connect and dream together.
In the Creativity chapter, Martha says, “you are always responsible for creating your life, whether you like it or not.” I’m responsible for taking my work–and this desire for my work–to the next level. I can feel it all–the discomfort, the desire, the stretching, the messiness. It’s all part of the process. Leading me to deeper joy.